pity, self pity self image

uncomfortable awkward heart pounding silence

tears, sunken eyes

stares piercing stares

sad eyes stare

okay? i dont know? are you?

listen to yesterday

forget tomorrow

i dont care anymore

just go away

curiosity killed the cat

kindness killed the bird

if i am my own personal messiah, then who are you? they all believe, but for what? fear, and faith…of what? when i flip the switch, the light always comes on, thats believable. i dont see what makes it come on, but it happens and i dont question it but u just seem ridiculous to me. i dont see what all ur hype is about anyways. uninspirable, unpredictable, unanswered…yup thats me. whats next? ur almighty, holy self should warn me, if thats what you are…

whispers of sodomy and infidelity surround this field

players on each side react to how you portray to feel

the pain in your eyes transfer to mine, as i witness this inhumane guillotine shut down on you

everyday we call out for unity

wonder if the other players even know the definition

each player as sick as the next mumbling the infamous ‘only god can judge’ 

 the looks they shoot result in suicide

the sound of the drums on this day of judgement signify your absence

the goal was not met, as they draw nearer to you, the look of shock slowly melts away

as a child you knew this day would come

never expecting a pardon that you so desperately need

the game is over now.

you lose.

put my glasses on so i can hear you, the closer i get to your picture the further you and i become. its ok, braces on my eyes to straighten my sight. im still waiting on me. condom dispensers in highschool bathrooms remind me i am only a piece of this problematic numbing generation. pitiful how easily circumstance separates 2 hell bent soulmates and how submissive we are to this fate. you shut me up with synthetic promises believing the false taste yourself. this was a reincarnation of your past mistakes. you thought you escaped, instead installed and relived thru me, causing a boomerang reaction, instead of my soulmate we took a piece of each other. repeat offender you were my veins first, you know how it ends. by the time you realized you honestly wanted forever, our ending was written; our separation enclosed and promised . thank you for the educational curriculum.

bringing down the inferior  to support the junkie in me

we are the epitome of satan

please wake me up from this slumber inside that seems so real

im adding a mainline

without your presence  inside me my walk is heavier now

stuck on this gurney again, same ole needles and blood on my bed

these hours last like years on my soul

eating away at my fingertips